Hi there. And all that

Hey for all you pommies I would like to educate you on this... a native NZ bird. It's called a Fantail. F A N T A I L. Yes, that's right, because it has a fan for a tail.
It's six foot long, and eats mostly seals and small dolphins. It's call is like that of the Orangotang. (Don't ask me what that sounds like) And it mates seven times a day with lots of foreplay. It also has an uncanny ability to camoflage itself to look like a chimney. You don't know what you're missing out on.

Visit NZ. (and then go back, we have enough people living over here)
Over and out.

Well, you will be pleased to know, (those of you that are keeping track, because there are millions of you out there doing that obviously) that the tutor has kindly replied. Ahhh. I was so excited to get an email from him I almost didn't want to open it. But I did, and unfortunately, his reply wasn't along the same lovestruck note that mine was. No confessions of any sort whatsoever. Infact it was rather blande and polite. He even called me 'dude' (which downunder doesn't have any linkage to surfers btw) which is a slap in the face with a cold fish saying, 'wake up, no way'. Dude is like, mate, friend, and 'keep at six foot long pole distance please.' Damn Damn Damnit. Well, I suppose the next time he's back in NZ I will be totally humiliated and turn beetroot colour and hide if I see him. Great. I almost wish he hadn't replied. Then there would still be some mystery... did he ever, could he ever fancy me back..... But, no. NO no no.

Oh well fuck that. He's still cool. I'll still dream.
It was quite a nice email after all. He said my compliments 'meant a lot' to him. and he's quite funny. In a depressingly non-flirty sexual kind of way.

Okay. Moving on..well today I was also bummed out on the boy front in another way. My ex, (who is a in pommie land btw,) is supposed to still be a good friend of mine. Okay, so, I don't know if I've mentioned, but I'm travelling out to the UK soon, and I was supposed to go and stay with him for some time too. (And possibly get a free shag on new years if I'm lucky) ... But now, he's working. I know! So I'm only gonna get to see him for like, 4 days max (no, no but he's a really good mate and I've known him years...and lived with him) and that totally sux!! I'm travelling bagillions of miles across the world and paying SHITLOADS of money to get there, you'd think he could have a bit of empathy and try and see me a bit!! Fucker. Ptth.

Oh well. Okay what else. Oh, yeah another complaint (I'm a nice person, honest... normally happy as a bouncing bunny on heroin) is that I'm supposed to be flatting next year with some pals... and now the house that's been found is like WAY too expensive for me. The plans have changed coz a couple of us were going to be out of the country when they had to choose a flat. So now the plan has gone to poo and they're fucking with the prior money arrangements (I'm pretty skint)

Okay, but on the good side.... it's fucking hot and sunny out here and you buggers have to piss around in crappy cold slushy weather.

Okay, that's all.

Please reply. I hate talking to myself.
No, really please do.
Please
Please

SO how are all you fuckers out there today? I'm great, thanks for asking.
I've made a bit of a fanny of myself because you know that guy I was writing about earlier? Yeah you know, my tutor? See the earlier entries, they put them in the opposite order to the way one would want, but hey.
Anyway so yeah I made a fanny of myself coz I wrote him a bit of an email, basically saying how great he is and that perhaps we should catch up next time he's around. And yeah, so no replies from him now obviously. Probably not again... ever. Normally he emails me back straight away. There are two options here: either he's scared and doesn't know what to say but pleased (unlikely option, but I can dream), OR he's very busy, greatful that someone still thinks he's hot, but really not at all bothered by an annoying student (who's taller than him none the less) and he's going away anyway so what was this stupid student thinking! And there are ethics codes! Silly silly student. (Yeah so that's more likely the option he falls under).

Anyway, so I'm gonna go and watch a movie now. Got a busy day though.. no honestly. I'm just SO good at procrastinating. ANd now I've affirmed that notion. Dammit.

Well, goodnight my upside-down pommie buddies. For me, the day is just beginning.

Okay, so it really looks like nobody is going to reply.
There is a humungous world of computers out there and only like 15 people have come to my blog site. Oh well. Screw you all. I'm just gonna keep on typing. There is little point to this but hey. So what shall I write about today? WEEEELLLL. As I got NO replies on my laptop screwup questions, I have not done anything about that little problem yet. Um what else is going on? I'm going to see Harry Potter tomorrow. I'm still totally into my Philosophy tutor but he barely notices I exist...
Sigh... Also I am going overseas to the UK to see some relatives on the 28th yay! Yeah so you might realise I'm actually not in the UK right now.... yes I just logged onto a UK site coz I like the UK more. I'm actually a kiwi. But HEY. No well technically I am a pom, half Northern Irish, half English.. I just live in NZ and have lived here most of my little life. Not that I like it all that much. It has it's up side. And definately it's down side. What a good advertisement I'm putting forward for NZ. Ha.

Well, I'm getting a bit bored of writing now.

SO chow.

I have a HUGE crush on a tutor of mine. I know, it's a bit stupid coz he's like, 30 or something, and I'm only 19. But I really like him and it's not for his looks, (that would just be infatuation.... mind you I am infatuated...) He's just SO nice, and SO friendly and SO intelligent and I share SO many similar interests with him. It's getting ridiculous I can't stop thinking about him!! I don't think he knows I like him and I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me back. I know he's not married at least! I just wish I could get him out of my head! I've had 3 tutorials with him now, ( more than a year) and each one has just confirmed that I totally fancy him. Goddamn it.
I reallllllly wish he wasn't going back over to Australia..
sigh.
What a silly person I am fancying someone clearly of a different universe. Perhaps I'm just not busy enough. No I really am, scratch that idea.
Okay, gotta go.

Hello, I'd just like to say that for all of you out there who would like to harrass an annoying person, their phone number is 0212674737. Tell him he's a fag and a loser. It'll be fun, honest.

Well, so what to do today...

So, I have this problem, right. Anyone can help me out here, if you wanna reply I'd be very greatful. I've broken my laptop's screen, and it's thouroughly fucked now. A new screen is gonna cost me like 1,500 but it's a really good laptop and I don't wanna just buy a new one. I'm still paying off this one! It's a vaio sony newish model. boooohoooo I can't believe I fucked it up. It's like 6 months old. I didn't crack the screen, just like.. munted it. I accidently squashed a cord in there when I closed it, and so now half the screen is black and multicoloured. Looks nice, but, not much good. Any ideas? Anyone know where you can buy really cheap screens? Anyone have any better ideas of what to do? Damn.

Okalydokaly, well I'm off.
Nighty night.

Yeah, well, today I fell out with my brother and sister. Lets face it who wants to read this stuff? Well, whoever you are, you are very, very sad if you have this much time on your hands. Almost as sad as me, as I am the one writing it. Yes, anyway, as I was saying.. well actually I lied, I fell out with my sister a while ago, she's a shithead, and a hypocritical christian who does not give a fuck for any other than her precious self. Yes, still a bit sore from that whole thing.. anyway. SO yeah so I fell out with my brother last night, and today I walked in on them bitching nicely about me. WOah is me, I realise, this is not big gigantic poo poo news, but I certainly felt that they needed to be sliced into a few hundred pieces each, because of their nasty backstabber ways. My sister, lets call her fannyface, thinks she is so wonderful, and yet she has no relationship with my brother at all, and used to have a close one with me...but now she is trying to develop one with my brother in order to try and make herself feel justified in her shitheadness. So anyway, fannyface and oh, fuckhead, that will do.. (I don't hate fuckhead as much because he's younger, and also hates fannyface most of the time anyway, because of her jesus loving ness.) She only likes the jesus stuff because it gives her an excuse always to feel good no matter what she's done, because she has jesus so she must be a good person. Also because it meant her finally getting some friends (the christian community provides plenty of support and 'friendship' to losers). And finally, because it means she never ever has to decide anything for herself, she simply follows (SOME OF THE SELECTED, when it suits her..) rules, and then can stay in her little comfort zone with an answer to everything(oh but have faith, even if it seems impossible) and never has to be scared of anything because she never has to try anything. And it gives her this big fat confidence boost because she thinks she has the answers to the world. (poor ignorant rest of us)

AANYWWWAYYYYY> so back to the argument...
No, fuck it actually I don't wanna talk about the goddamn argument, I hate the little fuckers and that's all there is. I hate it because I'm a good person and I don't deserve this shit where it looks like I'm the fucking baddie. It's either, get walked on, and like people too much, or hate 'em and get treated and regarded like the devil. Fucked if I can be bothered explaining.
I have a good sense of humor usually. Normally.

Well, I'm buggering off now. I guess do you 'sign in' again next time and do the same?? What is with this blog shit anyway? What exactly is the point? Well I guess it's slightly more satisfying than just writing in a journal because there is always the slim chance that some sad fucker might actually read it and then you have spoken your mind to another human being.
My mind's not normally this negative, by the way, saddos out there.

Anyway, have a nice life. I'm going to be more self pitying and childish for a while. Okay.

over and out